God dam Help me.............
 

I won't go into what all is making me feel this way i would be wrighting all day. but lets say i feel like i have been fighting to survive all the shit that has happened in my life for what feels like every day of my life. and i just got some news that i think has finally brought me to my knees. right now i want the people who have hurt my kids to die(NO I AM NOT THREATNING TO KILL ANYBODY). There's a hand gun sitting about 2 feet from me. I'd like to put it to my head and pull the trigger but I don't have the guts. God I can't take the pain and I can't Excape it. Somebody tell me there is something to fight for. Some way I can Win for once in my life. I consider alot of you my friends. HELP ME PLEASE!!! :(

Please Stacy, don't even think that way. Think of your kids and all of us here who care for you. Call this number and talk to somebody. 1-800-784-2433

what happened to your kids ???

Don't give up, Stacy. I don't know what's going on with your kids, but please don't give up hope. Yes, you have been through a lot, but the main point is you made it through it all. I know we don't know each other that well, but I'm always here for you if you want to talk. You have my email address.

Please talk to us, AMK.

What has happened to your kids, sweety?:(


We are all worried now, so please say something!!

what happened to your kids?


don't think of doing anything like that

Get real, professional help?

Its better to get this stuff out in the open Tust Me i felt ton's better when i got all the stuff i kept up inside of me open try that i bet it will work for u since it did for me.

if you kill yourself you'll be dead. Do you REALLY want to be dead? Of course not.

That is correct.

Stacy, check your PM box.

Creeper

i'm pretty sure she meant to get help the same way Newb did..
talk to someone who can help immediately .. a professional that knows what they are doing ..

I was thinking the same thing .. although i sent her my phone number ..

Just wasnt sure if i would be saying the right thing..

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We all have moments in our life when we think "Maaan, what is the point of life? Struggling with dissappointment and heartache...what is there to live for."

Well, for you...the answer is easier than for some of us. You have kids that need you in their lives. No matter how down you may get on yourself sometimes...you have to think of all of the other people in your life who need you, and depend on your existence for numerous reasons.

Stay positive, babe.

Life is a big bully. But, you can outsmart it and knock it on its ass!

knee jerk reaction, AMK holds a very special place in my heart.

no one wants to see anyone suffer ..

i hope someone hears from her soon.

Yup

I like how people expect the worst from me though.

Just for the record..I've never had to use that number..I looked it up online. I've pretty much been a happy idiot all my life.
Its just when someone sounds so desperate I think its best they talk to someone with experience dealing with sensitive issues.

Stacy, you have a lot of friends here and we are all thinking about you.

i couldnt agree more .. but we'll help if we can ..

We've all felt down before. Some of us have even felt a bit suicidal at times. (I know that I, myself, have.)

It's best to remember that we're given one life to live. If you believe otherwise, that's fine, but it's really a gamble if you think about it.

Focus on making your one life a positive one.

i wish you were online right now.

i wish you didnt say any of that.

just take the five minutes and go for a walk go cry, go to a park go any where. call someone, it doesnt have to be professional help just call a friend. you need to let this out.


ill pm you

I'm a bit late to jump in on this one...but all the same, let's assume you're still alive.
You're my friend, but I'm not about to sugar coat this.
You say you care about your kids, and I can see that...but if you do any harm to yourself, not to mention KILLING yourself...it's gonna fuck with their heads BIGTIME, and I think that in the longrun, they'd fucking hate you for it.
Not the best way to go out.
So whatever this is, get over it...sort WHATEVER this thing is out, let your life play out how it's gonna right now, and if there's any bullshit, strive to get around it and you'll be better for it.

- B.

i would have to agree. sounds like yuo need a lot more than just some kind words from internet folk. thats why psychologists are here. they dont get Phd's, read all them books and sit in all those session and take workshops for nothing.

oh. and let me add. get rid of that gun. and dont nobody come in here takling about 'oh wow she needs it to protect her kids' cuz look where its at now?

of all the people with guns in their households, it ends up causing more problems than helping.

that and fact of the matter is, even if you DO want to protect your kids, you know as well as probably many other people know that YOU are NOT at all in your right mind to be having that thing anywhere NEAR you................

lock it up. separate the gun from the ammo.. do SOMETHING......

Dont think of things like that AMK jeez you sound like a teenager

i never knew your name was stacy

Anyone heard from Stacy since she posted this?

i dont believe so

I saw she was on the site a few hours ago and sent her a p/m but got no reply......:confused:

Signs of life, eh? That´s always something..

Is it time we get a new mod?

took the words right from my..........

... fingers?

I hope you never do anything as selfish as that. Look at life, no matter how much bad there is, there is always so much more good. Look at your family, and see how much we care about you here. Your friends and family you've made need you to be strong. No matter what there is always someone to turn to. Live your life because it's YOURS, and know that people need you too....keep your chin up sweetie.


I dunno what happened to your kid(s), but whatever it is I know they need you through it

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pm me or msn me or I'll give you my email address.... it's good to share all the shit in life, cos you'll always find someone with an ear ready to listen :)

hahahahahaha

I have her number somewhere, but I cant locate it.

I sent her an email no reply:(

I wouldn't worry about it.

Why not? Is there something you know that we don't?

not sure.

You have two groups of more extreme depressed types. "hopelessly suicidal" and "hopelessly depressed"

I'm pretty sure allmykids falls in the hopelessly depressed category. A hopelessly suicidal person will kill themselves without telling people about it, because they can't talk to anybody. A hopelessly depressed person will cry out for attention for the reassurance that people care. (sorry to break it down like that)

Everybody needs to feel cared about I think, I think she needs professional help so that she can live her life better, I don't think she's the type to kill herself though.

If you want my advice allmykids, which I'm sure you probably don't care about... I'd take a break from anything you have going online/with other people who aren't seriously important to your happiness and seriously focus on making your life enjoyable. Fuck, I'm late. Get well soon, hun.

hmm I think I was robbed, guess I'm not going anywhere...

My mother gets really depressed too, I used to when I was younger. I remember desperately trying to think of things that would make me happy, and not being able to think of anything. I feel great now with only small bouts of a day or two of depression. I feel bad for you guys who still feel that way, it's a really shitty way to go through life.

Right now, you're fucked in the head. It's pointless to go through live to fucked to enjoy it. Make your life worth living. My mother is better now since she changed medications, maybe you should see a different doctor and tell him your medication isn't working.

Thank you guys!! I'm doing a little better today. I felt so alone and hopeless. You guys will never know how much your support means to me. I don't feel so alone. I went back and forth from rage to crying untill I felt I had no tears left to cry. I have been told I need to grow up. That this forum is childish and satanic. But with the Exception of my children I have gotten more support, love and understanding from you guys then anybody else. I will be back on later today and answer all the pm's. Thanks for the love I feel it and am drawing my will to keep fighting from it.