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I threw the rest of the mushrooms away and I'm done with them. All they are doing now is making my mouth numb and after the incident the other night, I learned that they literally can kill you if you ingest too many of them. I mean I ingested a quarter at the most which is a lot but definitely should not make your entire body go paralyzed and have you barely be able to take a breath to the point where you lay there and make peace with dying.
I'm done with this shit and I need to start saving my money up and working more on me. When it warms up this summer I went to go out and start mingling more like I did last summer and try to work on meeting people or even see how my pick up skills fair. I mean I realize I'm not a club person but Fremont Street, which is fun, isn't that far from me and there's a bar about 2 mi from me on my street that Anthony Bourdain used to go to that I really want to check out. I'll save the clubs for when I have a date that likes to dance.
I'm realizing just how out-of-whack my priorities have always been and since I have gotten away from everyone I knew I don't have to worry about offending anyone or seeking their approval and I have came so far and not even a year and I am so proud of myself and when I get back into school, if I get back in I should say, I'm going to take full advantage of it and push myself hard this time. The last time I had to rely on my ex getting me to and from school so I flunked out but this time it's all on me.
Life moves slow but right now that's exactly how I need it to move.
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