[wood_elf_pansy]

She hides...

she slides the raizer across her arm
she pushes harder as she asks herself why
she cuts again and again hoping for the end
and she begins to cry
she wears long sleeves to hide the scars
to hide from what they would see
she doesnt want them all to know
she wonders what would be

she takes another shot
not wanting to think
all she knows is that
she wants another drink
shot after shot after shot
she drinks them down so fast
she cries and cries and cries
she knows her pain will last
she sobers up for a while
to hide from what they would see
she doesnt want them all to know
she wonders what would be

she smokes a little more
wanting to be more high
she keeps on smoking
she doesnt want to try
she doesnt want to live
if thats how life will be
so she keeps on smoking
until her heart is free
she puts on an act
fake smile and all
she feels light headed
and then begins to fall
she catches herself real quick
to hide from what they would see
she doesn't want them all to know
she wonders what would be

she holds the gun in her hand
she wants to be dead
she doesn't want to live her life
so she puts it to her head
she sits in the dark
listening to all the sounds
she takes out the clip
and she counts the rounds
she realizes you only have one life
she hides the gun from the rest
she decides to try oone more time
she wants to do her best
she keeps her thoughts to herself
to hide from what they would see
she doesn't want them all to know
she wonders what will be.

written on 9/5/2004 at 10:50pm