O.K. dude, I know you and I have never really got along...but here it is...life is series of kicks to the nuts....get a cup. I have a few friends that have been down the road that you're currently on, and like many people here said, Antidepressant Meds like Xanax, Paxil, exc. will definitely help. I'm not telling you to stop fucking, drinking, or toking...because what works for me...doesn't mean it will work for everybody.
Just take a deep breath....and for the time being ... worry about yourself and no one else...and remember...nobody is guaranteed tomorrow. :cool: