[Psycom5k]

Everyone, thanks for the advice, and the support. It is nice that I don't have to deal with this stuff from all sides. I'm definatly going to take a long break from drinking, starting now. I was a little dumb last night and got really really drunk. I don't think it was all because I was depressed, though we had a party last night at my house, and normally I'm all for it, but I spent most of it by myself on the dark part of my porch, until this girl who's a close friend of mine(my best friends fiance) came over, sat down next to me, and we talked about the shit I was going through, shes one of the three people I can talk to about myself. She made me feel alot better last night, so I returned to everybody and we played asshole, and I got hammered. After that I don't remember much but I'm told I went to bed at about 3 in the morning. I'm paying for it, so i'm not going to drink for a while. but when I woke up this morning all those feelings came rushing back at me and I felt like shit again. Alchohol really isn't a way to cope, I know that now especially. its killing my head to look at the screeen so i'm gonna cut it short.
I'm gonna look into the B vitamins, and I know I gotta stop being so down on myself,but its easier to say that than to do it. Chrono I'm going to try that "think about other stuff" thing. I don't know if I can change my diet that well right now, because I don't have alot of money right now. But I will look into that.

But once again thank you guys so much, its easier to know that at least somebody is on my side, and I got a bunch of somebodies. Thank you.


P.s. V, I'm pretty sure your not telling me to hange myself, because that would be fucked. But i'm not sure what the quote means. But thankyou for the support.