[pinkfloyd45769]

I'm addicted to painkillers.I have thought about putting this out in the open for awhile and just decided to do it.Its not a fun habit to have,its expensive,its annoying,its just not fun.I could go on and on telling you guys whats its like to be on these,but i'm not sure what its like to be on,only i'm not sure what normal is like anymore.My skin crawls,my stomach is sick,i'm pissed off and all i want is a painer.I'm getting off of them little by little,a little closer everyday.It sucks when you know you have to do something and you just don't want to.This tiny pill can make everything better,why give that up?!I want to because of my kids,i love them too much to keep it going.Im still a good mom to them i just want to be better.So thats it,thats my real horror...its more scary than any movie out there!