[novakru]

I had no idea that I would have caused concern.

I am sorry.
I hate the fact that I caused anyone to be worried and I hope you understand how bad I feel about that.

I had something extreme planned.
It fell through
I cannot tell you it's over or that I am ok.

But I did want to write this because it causes me pain to know anyone felt anything negative because of what I wrote.


I do not know what to say to make anything better here because quite honestly I cannot possibly go any lower into this darkness.

I do not want sympathy, empathy ,pity, helpful advice and people telling me I am selfish, stupid, etc etc.

Where I am right now cannot be touched.
There is nothing I can do about it right now except try to make it through the next hour.

But my time here is definitely done, hence the previous message about how impressed I am with you all.


I wish the best for all you guys and I truly mean that.