[Rayne]

Rayne finds an empty notebook in the bundle of provisions that were left on each cot in the team bunker...She turns to the first page and begins to write.

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I've never kept a diary before, but after witnessing the insanity that has befallen my team because of this situation we are in, all fighting for our lives, I feel I must find SOME outlet for my thoughts or I'll go insane, too...If I haven't already begun to descend into the madness unaware.

It's difficult to determine who can be trusted, and who will stab you in your sleep...The paranoia and lack of sleep helps to nurture the insanity...I find myself shocked at how brutal, vicious and heartless my teammates have become, although given the circumstances, I realize that I shouldn't.

I'm seriously concerned about Bwind, the first time he was attacked, something inside his head just broke...He has completely lost it, there's absolutely no reasoning with him or swaying him from his intent, and I am afraid that his bloodlust will cloud his judgement...He now seems to have a single purpose, and I believe that he has chosen a partner in some sadistic danse macabre that will only end when one of them has died...poor Roshiq, I know he's the enemy now, but he wasn't always.

There are so many new people on the island, I'm trying to get a handle on where my novice teammates stand and whether they will be an asset or a liability...No matter what sort of person one is in normal circumstances, situations like this bring out the best and the worst in us, even WE can't be sure what type of people we are until we are faced with something like this...I believe some are shocked at what and who they have become...Some are pleased with what they have found inside themselves, while others are surprised, disgusted or saddened, and some are truly terrified...It would seem that some of us have had demons dwelling inside, which have now been unleashed.

Speaking of demons, GreenDemon showed up on the island the other day, right after Michelle was attacked, and Krell went mysteriously missing...I know that he is here to protect his wife, although I believe Michelle is doing quite well on her own, in fact her brutality has surprised me a bit...Well, not a whole lot, I mean, I knew she could be vicious if necessary, I just never imagined she would enjoy it so much *shudders*

It certainly seems like some strange coincidence that Krell was participating 100%, then suddenly he disappears and no one ever hears from him again, just in time for GreenDemon to take his place, not only on the island, but on his wife's team...It makes me wonder, how much would a husband do to protect his wife?...Hmmm...Could he be more dangerous than any of us realize?

Freak is a good teammate...He has always been there when we need him, and he really came through for us in the hunt, not even questioning the mission, simply doing his job flawlessly...He hangs back in the shadows so as not to call any unwanted attention to himself...He makes a damned good soldier...It's comforting to know that we can depend on him, and his loyalty is truly an asset.

GroundZero is also new to the island...It will be interesting to see which direction he will go in when pushed, and also what will happen when he comes face to face with Saytan...They have a very strong bond...But, can knowing that only one person will leave this island alive, cause that bond to be broken?...Is the love for the person you have vowed to protect, stronger than the instinct for self-preservation?...I guess we will find out...I try to dismiss the fact that I may discover this in an instant, if DudeGuadalupe or DemonSeed take aim at ME...I keep shutting out those thoughts when they try to make their way in, but I probably shouldn't...In fact, maybe it's something that I have to give some serious consideration...Ugh, I just can't...I have to view them both as 'the enemy', as long as they are on opposing teams...And they must also view me as such...This island is hell, it doesn't exactly encourage loving relationships, and compassion can be fatal...My loyalty will always be with my team...And even they will be the enemy in the end.

After putting all of this out on paper where I can actually look at it...I'm thinking that I probably shouldn't be so concerned about my teammates' sanity after all...Perhaps going insane is the easiest way to deal with all of this...We may all be at peace soon - no guilt, no remorse, just mindless killing machines...Will the one person who ends up surviving, truly be a 'winner', or a raving lunatic who has lost it all - friends, family and even his/her mind?