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Originally Posted by ChronoGrl
Not exactly, but how fun would THIS be??
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Had a sort of realistic nightmare last night - Dreamed that I had a baby and the thing was literally the ugliest creature I had ever seen, the father wanted nothing to do with it (can't remember if the father was my fiance or a high school boyfriend; time was acting strange)... So as friends and family were crooning over it, all I could think of was it dying of S.I.D.S. or wishing that I had had an abortion -
It's hard to explain the feeling of utter disgust with yourself coupled with feeling totally and completely alone with this creature that you absolutely disdain. It was truly unsettling and depressing.
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Good news is that it pretty much crystallized the fact that I have no desire to have kids (a topic that keeps resurfacing since I'm getting married in November and people loooove asking, "Sooo - What's next?" as though just sitting back and enjoying being married wasn't enough!). Nothing against them - I actually like kids and for the most part like my friends' kids... But I have no desire to have a larval spawn of my own. Also, I do truly believe in the Bad Seed, so there's the chance of this Thing being ill or evil or awful... I think I'll adopt a dog instead. |
From things I've heard you say before, this is obviously a manifestation of your fears over having children. I've said before that you shouldnt let fear stop you from having such a wonderful, if not the most amazing thing in the world. I seriously doubt you'll have a mutant baby that you'd want to kill.
At the very least you'd have a mutant baby that you would grow a warped connection with and try and protect it and end up killing people to feed to it.
But you know....nothing to be afraid of. :D