I've always wondered though.......Back in the day, no one was on Anti-Depressants.....Now it seems that everyone and their brother takes them......Is it that we need them or we need them because they're available?

I internalize everything too for the most part......But in recent years it seems that I don't anymore.....I've just kind of taken on a fuck all attitude....I don't let things bother me....It's as if I just shrug everything off and don't even let it internalize anymore....I used to be bad...Explosive attitude...A Very Short fuse....Never physically fought, mostly verbal........But now, I dunno.......I just don't seem to care.....Probably not a good stance on everything, but hey, it seems to work.......I still have my ups and downs though not at all as extreme.......Maybe it's in hibernation?

As for the cutting, mine consisted of words such as Anti-Me on my forearm and shit like that........In a way I guess I was looking for help, but at the same time, I would've turned down any help anyone would have offered me......I told myself I was doing it to be "different" and to freak people out, but all in all, that was bullshit......

BTW, I've never spoken aloud about any of this stuff, so you guys better feel special! :D

Interesting, I used to take Zoloft for insomnia. Who knows, that's what my doc prescribed. But ever since my Dad passed away I haven't needed anything to help me sleep.

I wish I could say I know what you're going through, but I don't. I used to work for a woman who is bi-polar and you could definitely tell when she didn't take her meds. I became the whipping post! My niece was cutting for a while, but I think she's stopped (she lives in Missouri so I don't really know what's going on with her).

I wish you all the luck in the world!! I'll say a prayer to the Goddess Demeter for you.

Most cuters try to hide it. I however didn't. It's wierd I hate pain. I am not one to hurt others Just myself. When I was 17 I had alot of suicide attempts The last time they held me down and pumped my stomac. God did that suck. I never OD'ED Again!! People with bi-poler Tend to Abuse Drugs. Mine was Pain Pills. Still trying to kick that habit. I'm alot better But I have had some Relapses.

Ahhhh....Drug Abuse......I knew thee well......

Ugh..I think there may be too many drugs out there....

Wanna sleep?...Take this pill
Wanna stay awake?...Take this pill
Too happy?...Take this pill
Too sad?...Take this pill
Too hyper?...Take this pill
Too lethargic?...Take this pill
Can't think?...Take this pill
Don't WANNA think?...Take this pill


I don't want to get started on my anti-psychotropic drug rant (ESPECIALLY concerning children)...So, I'll just stop here...But, seriously...I think it's WAY overdone...

Personally...I'll never take ANY of that garbage......I guess that I just LIKE being 'fucked up':D :p

If it helps you guys though...More power to ya...I guess I just can't understand the need for all of it

I agree BR...They hand out pills like candy.......That's why I don't take them anymore......haven't for years......I was used as a test subject for Ritalin........They kept me on it for over 10 years.....After they figured out I was essentially a junkie because of it, They took me off of it........Now they'll only treat with Ritalin for a maximum of 2 years......I don't really trust dr's anymore....

That's my point, right there....

You don't want to see me with out my Zoloft. The key is combinding it with counsling. I get a little upset anbout this. People have told me to just knock it off. If I had no legs you wouldn't tell me to walk across the room, but because they can't see my bi-poler they think it's not there.

You missed my disclaimer......If it helps YOU, then more power to you..... I just don't see the need for ALL of it....I'm just saying that there's WAY too much...Obviously, in your case, there seems to be a need...But, I still say that for the most part, it's just far to easy for 'doctors' to throw pills at people...