Just when I'm feeling better....

[Psycom5k]

I can't take this shit anymore. I'm fucking sick of it. I just start feeling better, and i'm actually happy for a little while, and i get fucking shot down again. I fucking hate life, its rediculous. Why can't shit just ever stay good?

So I guess I should tell you why i'm like this now. Well as some of you may know, my family got evicted from our home of over 20 years about 2 years ago. And well guess what happened again. Yeah thats right we are fucking evicted again, because the guy that owns it now, who we had buy the house for us and we've been paying him a rediculous ammount of money every month, kicks us out, because we got a little behind even though we are caught up on the actual payments on the house. We haven't been able to pay for getting the septic fixed yet, or the land taxes that the fucking asshole pushed on us, otherwise he wouldn't have done this for us. Yeah I understand its not really his fault, but hes still an asshole, taking more than 3 grand a month from us, but ignoring it over the fact that a 5 grand fucking bill has been payed. Thats a years worth of payments of over 3 grand each, versus a fucking 5 grand fee for a septic. God forbid anybody have fucking money problems while the whole country is having them. I fucking hate people. I'm going to go get fucked up now, I can't deal with this shit.

[newb]

that sucks








this place needs a shot of Dr. Phil lately.

[Disease]

Man, I know what money problems are like of late, I'm working three jobs, I never know when I'm getting work from any of them, last week I did 40 hours in 3 days this week nothing on the cards.

Plus I' have been over taxed the past 2 weeks, thought it was going to be sorted out by this week but no. which left me with the rent and 1 pound to spare on Monday.

So at least I made that, but still have 100 pounds in council tax and power which is dur this week.

I've coped a raw deal for the last few months. But you just got to realise things are fucked and laugh at it.

I did 4 and a half hours more last week than the week before and because of the tax fuck up I got less than 2 pounds an hour for those extra hours. It's pretty humiliateing. But I know I'm better than that. It's just that everyone else doesn't give a fuck about anyone else. Not even enough to do thier job and process a form. Get fucked up enjoy it.

In the end, somthing will give way and we will all be on top for a change.

[stubbornforgey]

Thats a shit load of money.When its all added up you could have bought or had a deposit for your own place.
What you need to do here is stay cool. calm and collective. Remember, you have other family members who are also stressing out over this.
One of you need to take the initiative and start looking at what to do.
Somebody has to stay strong for the sake of the family.
Cracking up now will only add to the already voliatile situation.

Be the man and start looking at your other options.
Then freak out when you have resolved something.

[Noah]

Originally Posted by newb

that sucks








this place needs a shot of Dr. Phil lately.

Nice..... :D

[Psycom5k]

THanks guys, I know life is fucked for everybody else too, its just hitting me kinda hard cause I have lived in this house for all but like 2 or 3 years of my life so thats basticly 20 years, my first memory is in this house, when I was like 4 or 5 I remember being in the basement and my grandfather has me come over to where he is and has me finish hammering in a few nails for him. I even remember which nails. Its just really hard to think that in two weeks I'm never going to be able to live in this house again. Its fucking horrible. But i'm fucking drunk as shit and higher than a kite. I'm lucky I can type as well as I am. So I'm going to bed to sleep it off.

[missmacabre]

cheer up buttercup

edit: I used my 2000th post for you. That should count for something right?

[ferretchucker]

3 Grand? Holy shit that's a lot!

Hope it all gets better. You can't change what happened now, so you just have to shape the future to be better for yourself.

[Roderick Usher]

That sucks, but remember that nothing is permanent and change is good.

And who knows, maybe that house is the source of your depression.

I'm dying to move my family out of the shity apartment in which we live. My kids have never had a house or a yard of thier own and it's tearing me up inside to not be able to provide it for them.

Things will get better, but only if you help to make them better.

[Psycom5k]

Originally Posted by missmacabre

cheer up buttercup

edit: I used my 2000th post for you. That should count for something right?

Thanks MM, you didn't have to waste it on me ya know.

And yeah Ferret 3 grand is rediculous. But we wanted our house back so bad that we agreed to it, saying that we'll do it somehow.

And Rod, I'm sure that the depression isn't from the house, I love this house, and leaving it before was the hardest thing I had ever done. I was so happy when we got it back last year, and now, I know we can't get it back. ANd its fucking killing me.

but Rod, don't worry about it, you'll get a house for your kids, and if not, so what? Its more important that you and your family are happy, and the best way for that is to be together.

It's just killing me because I don't understand how we ended up where we are, after building the house ourselves, on land that was given to us by my great grandmother. I just don't understand how that happened.